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Hey, man, no need to apologize, I just didn't think you– It's cool, really. That's okay.

[ He offers what he hopes is a reassuring smile, but he's still kinda surprised. ]

I'm flattered, man.

[With a rush of breath, he lets out a laugh and shakes his head, licking his lips and lifting his chin, meeting Cisco's eyes.]

Right. Well. It's still...not appropriate. Like, completely out of line. And I'm really sorry about that.

[A little shrug.]

So, please forget I said it, and we can just...move on. You know? I just thought it would be better than holding it in and stewing on it.

Uh, yeah, sure. Do you wanna run some more tests today, or...?

[ If Eddie's feeling awkward enough about this to want to call it for the day, Cisco's fine with giving him the out. He has a feeling he's going to be a little distracted himself. ]

[Glancing up, he smiles a little and nods.]

I think I can handle one or two more. I'm feeling mostly better. Let's do this thing.

All right.

[ Eddie's confession stays on Cisco's mind though, especially later that night when he meets up with M. He does his best not to let it distract him too much, but it's clearly not working. He's not too distracted for sex, thankfully, but it's a near thing. ]

[M tries to ignore Cisco's obvious distraction, but when it gets in the way of their private time, he runs out of patience. Propping himself up on his elbows, he looks over at his partner, eyebrow arched.]

All right, spill. What's on your mind?

What? Nothing. Totally focused on us.

[ He drapes his arm over M's hip, but can't... actually look him straight in the eye when he says it. ]

You know I'm a human lie detector. And even if I wasn't, you're a horrible liar.

Talk to me.

Yeah, okay, that's not untrue.

[ Something occurs to him, though. M's really good at reading body language, and he hangs out with Eddie a lot... ]

...Did you, uh, know Eddie is into you? And, kind of weirdly, also into me?

[A small smile creeps onto M's face. So that's what this is about...]

You only noticed that now?

So you did know! Dude.

[ He squeezes his hand on M's hip, pushing him a little. ]

You could've said something. Jeez, I feel like a jerk for— For not noticing?

[ He was going to say for gushing about his hot boyfriend. Not that M needs the ego inflating. ]

Of course I knew.

[Slides his fingers up Cisco's thigh.]

You seem to have enough issues about us without throwing Eddie into the mix.

Hey, I don't have issues about us.

You mean to tell me your inferiority complex isn't a thing?

I love you, and you seem to think I'm going to run off the second I find someone "better."

[ He sighs, and leans in to kiss M, then leans his forehead against his. He hates this conversation a lot. ]

I don't think that specifically. I trust you, I do, and I love you, too, okay?

[M returns the kiss, and runs his other hand through Cisco's hair. It's because M knows he hates having this conversation is that he's avoided having this conversation for so long. However, the time has come to finally have it.]

It's something in the back of your mind.[M kisses him again.] And I know that too. That's never in doubt.

[ He lets himself be distracted with kisses for a minute, but pulls back a little again. ]

Okay, but seriously, I'm not asking because of an insecurity thing, but... What do you think of Eddie?

In what way?

You know what way I mean.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't attracted to him.

[M kisses Cisco again.]

But I'd never choose him over you.

[ Cisco kisses him and runs a hand down his arm. He lets the kiss drag on, until it's almost as if he's letting the conversation die there, but then... ]

What if maybe you didn't have to choose?

[M leans back so he can see all of Cisco's face.]

That's what's been on your mind tonight?

Hey, I'd be lying if I said I didn't think he was attractive.

So we're just going to sit here and mutually admire Edward Thawne now?

I should be insulted that you were thinking about him before.

Hey, hey, I wasn't thinking about him during!

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I figure we can leave it here till the next installment?

Sure! Gonna continue the thread from here tho for organization's sake

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